Head inside the plastic bag

Those people who knows me personally,  I know they won’t believe me if I’ll tell that i have cried over the things that is not supposed to be. I just find it funny now after what happened that night. Kahit ako I won’t believe na I can do that because it doesn’t show sa personality ko, everybody knows I am strong enough to handle everything that comes my way, pero this time I need to express what I really feel, i need to cry this para gagaan ang pakiramdam dahil super over sakal na ako and may butas na yong puso!! Bohahaha

So ito na nga…

Barkada ko.. siyam kami..

It happened na nagkaron kami ng time to gather lahat and I was teasing red kung saan na ang promise niya na “fundador” as I have requested before he went home a week before that night. Dahil wala daw siyang enough money at mahal ang fundador we end up sa “gilbeys” I don’t drink gilbeys sa totoo lang pero dahil matapang ako that night, sumugal ako plus the boy bawang pulutan!! Hahaha

I was on the hot seat, kebs lang! ayoko magsalita at first about my feelings. Usap ng usap lang hanggang nagkaron ako ng courage to drink more sa tan-ena na gilbeys na yon!! Hahaha toma! Toma! Ng toma lang! hanggang I can’t hold firmly with the glass, so that means lasing na “ata” ako that moment, dinagdagan ng red horse! nilasing nila ako ng pabiro!! Bohahaha  Pakss!! Wala na akong pakialam! Inom ng inom pa rin!! They talked and I was really crying to the max, that no one would expect I cried that hard. I was really drunk I think! Hahaha I went to sleep dahil hindi na kinaya!

Before ako natulog hindi ako sure if sumuka ba ako hahaha kebs na kaibigan ko sila and they don’t have a choice but to take care of me!! Hahahaha nakatulog ako! Ginising nila ako around 2, umupo, bumalik sa table at hilong hilo ako, sumuka ulit ako! Hahaha natulog na naman! Ginising ulit ng 4 am, medyo nahimasmasan ng slight, and again sumuka ulit ako at mind you nakapasok daw ang ulo ko sa isang plastic saan doon din yong unang nailabas kong suka!! Hahaha sobrang gross!! Yucky!! Now ko lang narealize! hahaha

After sa sukang yon, we decided to go home around 4 am. Nakatulog na ako sa bahay, nakapagpahinga, medyo gumaan na ang feeling ko.

The next day, sabi ni dona (sa bahay nila kami nag-inoman) pinuntahan daw sila ng tanod nagtanong kung ok lang ba daw at sino daw yong umiyak na parang baka!! Boohahahahahaha tawa ako ng tawa, I am not sure if she is telling me the truth or nagjojoke lang. seeing back my friends, doon na ang madaming “kanchaw” (tease) I was a crying lady, sumuka at amoy boy bawang, mga kapitbahay daw asking sino ang umiyak ang lakas daw! And slowly naramdaman ko na ang hiya!! Hahaha

Nakakahiya pero nakakatawa, and I told myself, that will be the first and last!! Hahaha

I never stop loving

Sometimes we need to evaluate ourselves, we need to go back in the past in order to understand all the things that is happening to us right now, we need to reflect in order to do more what we think we can do.

When you lost a person in your life, you will realize that life is short. You will tend to ask yourself what were the good deeds you do to others. Am I ready to face God when the time of my death arrives? But you know what, when my mom died, what comes first into my mind when I heard the doctor says “time of death” – does the values mom gave us is enough already for us to face the world without her? Yes, I really thought of that, because in our family, family values are one of the important aspects we need to look up to. The words of my mother is the same words with my uncles (her brothers), me and my sister’s thoughts or perspective on the way we see life is the same with my cousins (her brother’s sons’ and daughters’). We are all seeing realities in life, we deal with what is the truth about life and that help me to endure all the problems in time.

I am not expressive, I may be too silent with my feelings in the past but when social work nurtured me to speak up, I have learned to voice out everything, it may be that I am mad or happy, I learned to open myself to the reality, sometimes we need to say what’s in our heart, good or bad, so the pain won’t dwell in your heart. Take some time to let your heart breathe.

When I lost my mom, I tried the best I could to stand for my family, for my father and sister. I am not my mother, I am not even trying to be my mother but all I can do is to be me as a person I know. But, I am really my mother’s “replica” no matter how I try to avoid her mannerisms, behaviors, attitude, even the way she deliver her words of encouragement, to discuss matters on the table, her perspectives in life, it’s in me, it’s in my blood and veins, I could not get away from it. The more I discover about myself as I grow up, the more I understand who my mom is. I could no longer deny it that I ran into her footsteps after all this time.

I am missing my mom, of course, but I need to be strong not to miss her that much because it will definitely kill my emotions. I have a soft heart it just doesn’t show. i can still feel mom until now, I could still see her in my dreams, reminding of simple things I used to forget when she was still alive, whenever exams is approaching – she’s always sitting beside me in my dreams, when problems pop up – she keeps on ranting but I couldn’t hear it. I always tell she’s still here I just couldn’t see her. I believed in my instinct.  

If mom is still alive now, probably she won’t stop ranting us until we get the life we deserve it. mothers’ knows best and that is proven in time! 

Recharge, Reborn, Rebuild Life

Weekend has been busy, i tried to learn the word “determination” and “motivation” in losing my weight! (lels!! Hahaha) seriously, I woke up so early to take a jog (Saturday) and a long walk by 5am (Sunday) and my jogging buddy suggested that I should enrol myself to the gym where she used to go, so right after we had a jog last Saturday TADAAHH!! we went to the gym and apply for a losing program. This time I need to work on things because sayang yong pera na pinambayad!! Hahaha ok so here is my plan now, hoping to be consistent in what I do and will not stop doing things I started.

One major reasons to lose weight is yong goiter ko, hindi pa naman halata pero it’s already there (it runs in the family genes) so for whatever operation in the future at least my body is ready for that, second is practicum will be coming so soon, a year from now so I need to fix myself because of the uniforms and I will be working on the field so I should be physically fit and lastly for some personal reasons also. (akin nalang yon muna? Hehehehe)

I am happy of what I am doing now kasi it helps me to be so busy in my life, pretending not to have problems, trying not to think about it because I don’t need to be so depressed on some matters. Classes starts next week the same so definitely I will learn to adapt “multi-tasking” job in my daily routing. Waking up early to prepare for work, after work I will be going to school and drop myself to the gym even for an hour, well I hope things will work out the way I think now.

I won’t lose this chance of losing and gaining something in my life, it’s I think about I need a change of routine, a change of points of view. Life has been tough to me in the past years and I want to see life differently so I am starting to rebuild myself, I will try burn what I had in the past and learn to live what has been given to me presently, future will come soon as long as I will complete what I want in my life now, everything will follow anyways. =) 

churbabels eklavuh

Hindi ko pa magawang gumala ng gumala sa mga blog ninyo pero once na makabawi ako asahang magkakalat na naman ako. Approaching na kasi ang midterm at patayan na sa mga requirements at may agency visit pa kami sa mga institution ng mga mentally ill at sa mga drug rehabilitation. Echos!! Student na student lang ako ngayon!! I will take my leave sa January 31 kasi yan ang araw ng visit2x namin. Gustohin ko mang magkwento at magbiro about sa kanila pero dahil ang sabi sa amin ang isang tao may worth at dignity kaya rerespetohin ko muna yan sa pagkakataong ito!! Hahaha

Hindi ko pa rin mapigilan ang pagbasa ng mga updates sa mga blog niyo kasi parang ito na ang nagbibigay lakas sa akin ngayon para magblog pa ng magblog at kayo ang naging inspirasyon ko kung bakit araw2x ginugusto kong magupdate as much as possible!! CHARS!! Hahaha natutuwa ako kapag nagbebeep ang aking  yahoo messenger na may mail na dumating galing sa blogspot na nagsasabing may nagcomment sa post ko. Echos!!

Natutuwa ako sa mga top commenters ko na kahit hindi mahaba angsinasabi basta lang makapagcomment at Makita lang na chumichikmakz siya sa kahit saang blog, ayos pa rin kasi dahil dyan mas lalo kitang nakilala at natutuwa ako lalo for reading more about your updates!! Chee!! Hahaha

Ito panalo na naman ako dahil sa inyo, salamat sa mga nagcomment ng walang sawang nakikiemphatize sa blog ko. Lol ito nageffort ako!! haha

Nubadi (nobody is perfect)

Blakrabit (Follow the dark rabbit)

Kuya Rencee (Making a difference at Soltero)

Empi (Kol me Empi)

Jay (Jay Rulez)

Talinggaw (I am Talinggaw)

Eoz (BlogEoz)

Kiks (kiks 2.0)

Kim (The Story Teller)

CNA (CNA Training Online)

Leah (I am super Leah)

Ile (A hint of Sunlight)

KM (More than sexy)

Arvin (Written Feelings)

as of 8:52 am - di pa ako tapos, madami pa to. i need to go muna kasi may appointment ako for interview ngayon sa medical social services ng NMMC kaya later tapusin ko muna. magpakabayani muna ako! hahaha maya2x.

PART 2 - starting time 8:44am January 27, 2012


hindi ko natapos kagabi ang blog kasi dumaldal lang ako and hindi ako tinamaan ng sipag din. so ito ngayon pilitin kong taposin kasi mag-aral pa ako maya2x at gagawa pa ako ng certificate para sa January 31 na agency visit namin.


so to continue my effort para magthank you sa mga naunang nagcomment ito na sila chan-daran-dan...


jhengpot (Heaven Knows)

kiko (Kaepalan ni kiko)

will (MelikesArt)
akoni (Akoni landi ya)
aliz (Aliz Travel Zone)
stef (life and fever)
rh0ze (My kawaii blog)
yellow bells (My yellow bells)
zelmarq (My indulgence)
Ane (life according to me)
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Pulps (A dose of orange)

jaid (The super girl wanna be)

Jocy (jocy's world)
Sey (14th Street)
Zai (Zai Moonchild)

Albert (how to become einstein)
gord (crumpled papel)
Mayen (clicks and cuts)

Maricel (CareerMomOnline)
Myke (Show me your look today and The pinoy wanderer)
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Sendo (Senderero)
Lili (Thinking out Loud)
Shenanigans (This is who i am)
haze (Moon Lore)
T.R.Aurelius (Theo's Casanova)
Lizzie (Pink and Convergence Zone)
Irish (d' explorer)
Virgo (The adventures of a virgo guy)
Nikka (Econnoisseur fashion)


natapos ng 9:49 am, hahaha halos 1 hour ang second batch, dumaldal pa kasi ako, i am informing everyone for plugging. salamat sa inyong mga comment at magkikita kita pa rin tayo dahil hindi pa natatapos ang kwento ko dito, marami pang darating! 

pangyayaring asahan natin minsan

Ngayon lang ako mabubuhay ulit sa blogsphere. Dahil sa pagod ko kahapon, galing klase at nagpizza parteh kami, sinulit ko ang buong araw makapagpahinga total bukas wala naman pasok dahil holiday. Gumigising lang ako para kumain at tulog ulit. Baboy!! Hahaha ano naman talagang bumawi ako ng tulog at pahinga kasi matagalan na naman magkaron ng long weekend, sabay madami pang gagawing assignments ngayon. Bukas sisimulan ko ng isa-isahin ang naiwan na trabaho para hindi ako magmamadali sa Tuesday.

Malapit na rin ang midterms and I need to prepare more this time para hindi ma-disappoint pag dating ng result sa exam. haha it’s already a great opportunity na sa akin to go to school again kasi may experience na ako at applicable lahat, vice versa kung baga kasi after school I could apply it right away sa trabaho what I have learned. though honestly now, I have confusion already, madaming nagbago, madami akong nakitang mali at inisa-isa ko para I could cope uo the with situations, I know I need to seek professional help para maintindihan ko rin ang mga nangyayari sa akin. Hindi naman ako mentally ill or may problema sa pagiisip only that there will be a time sa buhay natin na nagugulohan tayo at normal lang yon.

I always have this positive view in life now compared noon, I know I can handle what bothers sa utak ko, sa mga situation na nangyayari, nagugulohan ako kasi the way I worked noon is too far different now, if I feel the contentment sa work ko noon in handling the clients who have problems in life, ngayon atrasado na ako kasi sa dami ng nalearn ko sa school I am afraid to be the same person noon which in school taught me what are the proper ways of dealing or handling clients.

And moments like this, ito ang surely I miss with my mom because wala akong mapagtanongan kung bakit at she could never guide me what to do, sariling sikap na ako ngayon, pilitin intindihan ang mga bagay na minsan wala ka rin namang sagot sa mga tanong mo, minsan kailangan mo rin magpretend na kaya mo para hindi ka malunod sabay sa mga problema at mga pagdududa at the last na nalearn ko sa buhay, kailangan mong isipin na lahat kaya mo kahit sa simula pa lang may takot ka ng gawin ang mga bagay na minsan hindi mo maisip na kaya mong gawin!! 

Hindi forever tanga ang isang tao

Para akong tanga while listening to my deviance class kasi sa totoo lang hindi naman natin malalaman na deviant na tayo if mismong word na yan hindi nag-eexists sa daily life natin. Shet! Haha yon ang stand ko lagi to myself that since now ko lang nalaman ang term ng deviant or deviance (meaning nito eh beyond norms, beyond normal na action sa isang tao) nakikita ko na ang pagiging deviant ko! Potah! Hahaha this is where I learned to accept my whole being (may genun talaga) kasi sa totoo lang in denial kasi ako sa lahat ng nararamdaman ko kahit sobrang hurt na aki!! Kebs pa rin!! Pero  malambot pa ako sa mammon pag di na keri!! Haha

Ito na ang kwento ko at ikarir kong ichismis ang buhay ko sa inyo. Sinabi ko sa last post ko na dumaan ako sa isang depression na hindi ko alam depression na pala yon! Hahaha shet talaga!! Kahapon sa klase ko yon ang pinagusapan at pinag-aralan, ako keep quiet lang kasi tinatamaan ako sa pinagsasabi ng teacher ko about sa depression, kebs lang muna ako, gusto kong tumawa man sa sarili ko kasi wala akong kamalay malay na ang pinagdaanan ko eh sobrang depression na pala yon noon. Good thing because I learned it, I just laughed about it now and I accepted it.

I got depressed kasi I stopped schooling noon for 1 semester and I feel like nadisappoint ko ang parents ko. Hindi naman ako nalulong sa druga no, hindi rin naman sa love life pero yong hiya sa sarili, sa ibang tao at sa pamilya. Wala lang akong gana magaral noon kasi madaming problema na dumating, hindi ko kinaya paano ko harapin, mahina ang loob ko at wala akong laban kahit gusto ko mang lumaban parang helpless na helpless ako. Normal lang nagagalit ang magulang pero sa mga pagkakataong yon hindi ko alam bakit ganon ang naging reaction ko, sa sobrang hiya ko nagkulong ako sa kwarto.

At ito ang naging routine ko sa araw2x na yon.

Sa umaga late akong gumising, I am waiting for my parents to leave for office and my sister to go to school. buong umaga nasa kwarto lang ako, sa hapon nasa garahe lang ako at nagiisip at nakatingin sa langit, wala akong kausap, hindi ako nakikipagusap sa kahit sino, wala akong outlet. Feeling ko wala na akong kinabukasan at wala na akong silbi. Pagdating ng 5pm pasok na naman ako ulit sa kwarto kasi parating na sila galing work, hindi ako kakain buong gabi, kinaumagahan na ako kakain pag wala na naman sila. Yong kwarto ko ayoko ng ilaw, gusto ko madilim lang.

Ngayon ko lang narealize na na-depressed na pala ako noon kasi halos 2 months yon na ganon ang naging buhay ko, wala akong kausap at wala akong mapuntahan, hindi pa uso ang blogging noon kaya hindi ko naisip iladlad ang sarili ko dito. Lels. Natatawa ako ngayon nalang kasi nalagpasan ko ang stage na yon at nagawa kong ibangon ulit ang sarili ko kahit until now alam kong may sayad pa rin ang utak ko paminsan minsan, keri nalang!!

Salamat sa social work na kors dahil sayo naging tao na ako!! Hahaha nakakapagfunction na ako ng mabuti sa ibang tao at para sa sarili ko!! Haha debaterya!!

Behind resurgence blog

I have been blogging kung ano2x lately but I forgot to tell something kung ano nga ba ang ibig sabihin  ng resurgence, this means revival. Revival kasi  I could say now na I am ready to open everything what’s on my mind without any  hesitation or limitation, before I always have this apprehension of sharing my life because I am afraid to be judged or hindi ko lang talaga type magkwento ng kung ano2x sa buhay ko. Ngayon dahil mas naging makapal ang mukha ko kaya ikarir ko nato!! Lol

Resurgence kasi ito na ang bago kong buhay, I could say now that I have a new life in blogging, I have tried a lot of times noon magblog pero dahil feeling ko wala akong makwento kaya hindi natutuloy ang karir ko sa blog plus the fact that I am conscious with what I am going to tell the world but now wala ng conscious2x na yan, kung baga bahala na si superman sa akin ngayon!!

 

I have changed a lot I know, I always tell that to my closest friends that the person you knew in me before is not the person anymore now. Mas naging open minded ako when I started to study social work, it has a great influence in my life dahil ito ako ngayon nagsusulat, nagbblog, may lakas ng loob magsabi kung ano ang nangyayari sa buhay ko whereas noon as much as possible I want it everything in private, ngayon LADLARAN nato!! Hahaha open arms and open legs na kung baga!! Hahaha yes hello!! Go!! 

Tatlong araw na nawala ako

It has been a long weekend for me, I took the 9 hours class last Saturday and my brain starts to deplete. It’s good that after class I joined my friends to unwind and went home by 1 in the morning I think. The whole Sunday, TULOG ako!! Hahaha yesterday was draining the same. I took my two major exam and the fuck!!! Dugong dugo yong utak ko!!

Bago ako nagtake ng exam kumain pa ako sa chowking at guess what nag-halo2x ulit ako, ng matapos ang exam ko punyets! Sa sobrang pagod ng utak ko nawala ang kinain kong worth 150php hahaha and I went to Jollibee to order one chicken burger with extra large fries and large pineapple, at kinarir kong kainin magisa yon!! Hahaha nawawala ang diet ko puteks!! Hahaha

I went home na sobrang pagod na pagod pa rin ako so I decided to sleep early. Today, I feel so fresh parang bagong bago na naman ang araw ko  ngayon. Mahirap talaga abotin ang isang pangarap ano pero once it’s already there, I know it’s all worth the wait din naman! 

Friday the 13th confusion

Today is the first Friday the 13^th of the year. People come to believe that pag Friday the 13^th may masamang mangyayari. Sa awa ni lord ngayon araw nato wala naman, safe naman akong nakauwi ng bahay except for the fact siguro with my exam results ng prelim, parang isang malaking question mark yong nakuha kong score, super tricky yong questions at na-over analyze ko yong questions kaya naging mali tuloy. ECHOS noh?! I defended myself pa talaga eh simply lang naman yon talagang hindi umabot utak ko sa utak ng teacher ko!! Punyets!! Masyadong bright child lang talaga si MAM!! Or sadyang wala talagang laman utak ko while taking the exam!! yon!! No excuses!! Hahaha

I didn’t do anything after class kundi bili ng pagkain dito at doon. Kung ano2x lang maisipan kong bilhin, meron akong biniling popcorn na may peanut sa goldilocks, kumain ako ng halo2x sa chowking, sumegway pa akong bumili ng bread and sandwich spread para sa agahan ko bukas kasi 9 am to 7 pm yong klase ko kaya kailangan ko ng madaming malamon kundi ako ang lalamonin ng utak ko!! Hahaha

Parang kailangan ko ata munang matulog ng maaga ngayon kasi gigising pa ako ng maaga bukas para mag-aral!! (seryoso nato!! Haha) kailangan kong ikarir ang gusto kong future kaya sasagarin ko na!! pagkatapos ng klase malamang tambay ako sa mga blog niyo at makikigulo!! Hehehe gustohin ko mang mag-ikot ngayon kaso malamig ang panahon at masarap ng itulog. Nakakatakot din minsan ang lamig ng ulan kasi baka maulit na naman ang sendong. Spell the word TRAUMA!! At dahil sa sendong na yan, mas lalong madaming trabaho ngayon sa pag-aaral at sa buhay trabaho ko!!

At nawala na ako sa topic kong Friday the 13^th hahaha kahit ako nagugulohan kung ano ba ang post kong to!! Hahaha lagi nalang akong confused sa lahat ng bagay ngayon!! Punyetiks!! hehehe

Itulog ko muna ang taba ko!! Bukas magbuburn ako ng fats ulit!!! Hahaha

Kung ikarir ko na kaya ang pagiging denial queen

I have my own self-worth this time after a long silence about my life. I am a good or a great pretender in showing my true feelings, I am not a showy type of a person, I talk less either. Whenever I am sad, angry I just keep it to  myself until it will reach to it’s highest point na hindi ko na kaya at maburst out ko, sobra pa sa bomba talaga which I find it hindi maganda dahil malalim ang pinaghuhugotan ko. This is me and I am happy now that I am trying to rebuild myself in a manner that I am learning to correct my own mistakes in the past and I learned to be open with my feelings, happy man or malungkot but there are just instances na hindi pa rin nawawala sa akin yong pagiging denial queen ko lalo na pag-naiiyak na ako. Mind you kahit matigas ang mukha ko pusong mammon ako kahit hindi man bagay sa akin ang umiyak! lol

Self-worth because I manage to accept certain things in my life like ano ang ugali ko at saan galing yong ugali at pano ko ihahandle yong ugali ko. There are sensitive issues in my life that I considered, una na yong about sa panghuhusga ng ibang tao sa akin dahil yon ang nakikita lang nila without even asking me kung ano nga ba talaga. Slowly i am trying to understand that minsan we need to be open para Makita natin kung ano ba talaga ang gusto natin sa buhay at ano or san tayo mag-aadjust para wala tayong maapakan na ibang tao.

I am happy now that I gave myself a challenge also na dito sa pagbablog, maging open ako to whatever feelings that I have, may transparency in all the things na gagawin ko sa buhay ko and to share my thoughts, views, ideas without any hesitations and limitations. Chos!! Hehehe maniwala man kayo o hindi, seryos ako sa mga pinagsasabi ko!! Haha (ewan ko nalang kung maniwala pa kayo kung tumatawa ako sa ending!! Haha)

Maitim + white balak = Gray na balak

I was supposed to write an entry last night but since sobrang BADTRIP ako kahapon kaya I slept early nalang. I have been thinking to burst it out what I felt yesterday but I chose not to nalang because I might say words that is not appropriate at mas lalong maging masama ang tingin ng ibang tao sa akin. KEBS ko nalang!!!

This time I have come to many realizations in life that sometimes you just have to go on to your own battle alone, decide without asking other’s opinion and kill them silently!!! Hahaha I’ve come to think that the battle and competition in life is always there beside us, we just tend to ignore it because we uphold our values and traditions yet there are just some people doesn’t care what we feel. So ngayon, ito lang ang masasabi ko, HUMANDA kayo!!! I have been so reliant to other people NOON pero ngayon I am starting to live and believe on my own capacity to do and choose decisions as long as I have God with me. Everything will be fine I know.

Life must go on, I know my anger will last for a day or couple of days. Depende. (rarrr..lol) one thing I can assure myself now, I will not give myself fully to the people whom the same may mga maitim na balak sa akin!! Kahit anong maputing balak pa ang nasa akin kung maitim naman sa kanila, maging gray yon so meaning black still prevails!! LOL dahil maging gray ang balak ko sure ako hindi naman ganon kabrutal ang mangyayari!! hahaha

bahala na basta ang alam ko I will do it my way!!! Come and see it!!! 

Utak kutsilyo

As I have promised myself na maging mabait na ako for this year, so one of the things I wanted to fulfill is that ma-complete ko na ang 12 months this year sa pagbablog. Hindi ako masipag, totoo yan! Hahaha pero magpapakasipag ako sa taon nato para na rin sa kinabukasan ko (kung meron man akong kinabukasan sa pagblog!! Hahaha)

I thought last year masipag na ako noon kasi naipagpatuloy ko ang pagblog, ang daming thoughts at ideas nasa utak ko yong utak ko lang ayaw gumana!! Hahaha kahit anong kain pa ng mga brain enhancer na yan, wa epek pa rin!! (futah!) kinakalawang na utak ko ata kaya for now gagawin kong malaking knife ang brain ko kasi the more you sharpen things mas gagana nga naman ito! Sige go!

I am totally confused kung ano nga ba ang blog ko about kasi ang dami kong gusto mangyari sa blog ko kaso kahit ako gulong-gulo din. Kebs nalang! Blog ko naman to kaya walang makikialam sa mga pinagsasabi ko dito!! Hahaha sa mga naunang blog ko, uber drama ang dating dahil na rin yon sa mga emotions kong uber na hindi ko macontrol at I still also have a lot of issues in the past na nabuksan ngayon that’s why buhos ang emosyon ko na parang hindi naman ako at hindi ko personality ang maging ganon pero dahil ako ay isang tao lamang kaya tanggapin niyo nalang din ako sa ayaw at gusto niyo!! Hahaha

Wala ng ka-sense2x ang sulat ko pero pag sharp na sharp na ang utak ko aarangkada ako ulet at maibahagi ko ang buhay ko na sana’y may matutunan ang bawat tao sa kanyang paglalakbay sa buhay na kasama ako. LOL go!!