I accepted the fact that you are not here with me anymore,
you can’t rant over the things I badly made, and I truly missed it. you let me
go, and I did too, this is because I don’t want you to suffer more, so you won’t
be in pain anymore. You let me decide on my own now, you cut my wings, and you
cut me all. I didn't know how to live after you left, after you decided to let
go of the things you used to have here with me. I know that there are
situations we can’t even control. I also know I have been stubborn all the time
but I learned. It wasn't all easy moving on knowing that you are the greatest strength
that I have all my life, what I am now it is all because of you.
I feel that pain every day, the more they say how good you were,
it breaks me, I always remember how we have suffered, how we fought our lives
together and I left all alone now standing, moving forward and hoping for a new
tomorrow. Whatever battle I have now, I am doing this for you, I am bringing
back what we've lost. I will be there one day. I silently want to be more than
what they think I can.
I know you’re still here with me, you’re still guiding me
and you want to give me the life I deserve. You are still the reason I lived up
to my dreams and survived up with some expectations. It may never be the same again
but I am trying to live on what has been left in me. I am still pushing this
dream.
One day, I will fly for free as you always told me, “the
more you travel, the more you get smarter.” Someday, I will wake up in a hurry
to catch up some flight for work, wearing my best corporate attire, when I arrived
at my destination, somebody will open my car, a car that has a Philippine flag
in front, shaking hands to dignitaries, talking to my own secretary for
schedules, I will be standing in front to many, making a difference to
individual, promoting new programs and services to improve the lives of the
people. Travelling abroad as well to give
honor to our OFW's, attend to certain needs and problems, I will be a motivator
in my own circle, family, friends and relatives. I will speak for our country
someday. From the law of attraction, these are possible if I keep on thinking
about this, if I attract this to happen, this will happen and I will make this
to happen. 5 years from now I will go back and read this again. 
All these dreams have been made because of my late mother
who is pushing me even I was still a kid that I can do more than what she did. I miss
you mommy! And you will always be an inspiration in getting these dreams. I’ll
be there one day! I promise. =)
